breathless

Dear friend,

I thought we were over each other already. I even forgot your name. Last time you held me breathless, as in really breathless that you got my knees weakened too, was over five years ago (?). I hated you then, because you made me feel helpless, and you lingered as if torturing me was your only gameplan in life. Damn you!

Do you know that I cursed the day you came into my life? I never asked for you, I hope you know that! You know how much I love my freedom, the very thing that fuels my life, even with just me and myself. But you came, weakened me to the nth power, made my nights almost unbearable. I remember how I cried those many nights, when breathing was so difficult, like there was big hollowblock placed in my chest. But somehow I was able to get you off my system, and rid of you for five straight years without looking back. It was really great.

But what is this, are you back?!?? :(

I was on my way inside the office when I felt you presence. I know it's you, that unmistakable breathlessness feeling again. You caught me off guard today, really. That same breathing again, it's doubly difficult now, especially that I wasn't prepared. While I'm typing this, I can still hear your whispers racing along with the deafening poundings of my heart. Oh, bullshit! I hope I could just throw you out of this building! I really hope. Why torment me now, I'm still at work, and tonight is not just the right time. But of course, like before I will still fight you no matter what.

Ventolin still works on me, and yes, there's the nebulizer too! I know how much you hate that. :P

Breathlessly undevoted,

V