i'm a blog girl so what!

several months back i was asked what was a friend to me. someone who replies to my text message even if he/she has no load, was my answer. that was not too much to ask for, piso ra gud na. but i understand if that friend is living in a cave or a bukid where she is the only one who owns a cellphone.

then last month, i asked, thru text, a friend/workmate an update of a national news as during this particular day i had no access to the internet and newspapers. she did not reply so i was thinking she had no load. that night i was at friend's house then this friend received a forwarded message from my friend/workmate who was the former's common friend. then i murmured, "maayo, naay load para's way ayo!"
using my friend's phone i asked her nganong wala siya mo-reply nako importante man unta to and i was really expecting a response from her. guess what she told me, "my load is exclusive for smart subscribers." Mao ba, was all i said, while thinking of retaliating.

the next day was it. i received a text message from a new number, a TM, of which i immediately knew was hers (the friend/workmate) even if she did not bother to introduce herself. she sent several messages inviting me to a product demo where she was into at that time. so what could she expect from me for what she'd done the day before. for the first time since we became friends i did not reply to any of her messages.

so the next day when we met at the office, she was like "hey that was my new number exclusive for my Globe and TM friends" and "why wala man ka ni-reply?" and i told her, "so you know the feeling na?" and smiled.

but that was forgotten as it was just a minor, a very minor "lapse of judgment." i admit i'm a jealous friend like God is a jealous God :)

then a few weeks back, we, this friend/workmate and i, again clashed and blame it on texting! she asked me to check her stories if they were carried for the next day's issue and to tell the editor she would email her stories in 20 mins. the meek me did as was told even if it was against my will, not that i did not want to check if her stories were really carried and her emailing them (that's just a feet away from my workstation). my point was we all came to the office to write our stories while she was somewhere, probably at the comfort of her home, waiting for the sun to set so she could submit her stories. i understood she came from the south to "get" her stories and she must have been too tired to go to the office which is an hour away from her house. granted it was true: her being tired and all, could't she just go to the office as what was required to each one of us.

but even with my hesitation to become an accessory, again, to her "laziness" i still informed the editor on her emailed stories. the editor said "nasad!" but what could he do? they've already reprimanded her for doing it but she never learnt.

to make the long story short i told her what the editor said and she was so angry that she sent her message supposedly for that editor to me. then the boot-boot me replied by saying i had nothing against the editor's comment, walang personalan, i added. and then she felt like i was rallying against her and replied i should have saved my comment. i did not as i had enough of her being what she was with her work. we have been asked to take an extra mile pero she's like 'kiver!'

and because of that she was ranting and calling me names (thru text) i never thought she had the nerve to. she even tagged me a "blog girl" so what? that was just the 'softer' part, actually.

so now, we no longer talk, what for? but i feel guilty for it as practically everyone at the office is not in talking terms with her. i did not tell my other workmates [save for those close(?) to me] our falling out as i wanted it "private" as much as possible but they're reporters, they kinda hinted it. well, she's doing her job, too, by telling her fellow reporters from other networks about us, duh!

the sad thing about this is her being alone. a few days back she came to the office late and was greeted by a memo for her not in her beat that morning. i heard so many negative feedbacks about her and i do not want to add anymore to that.

lesson learnt: not all close to you are real friends. sad but true.